I was shopping at the mall earlier tonight and just so happens to enter a small little booth on the second floor where toys are being sold.... The typical children toys such as Barbie, Disney toys and etc...
I was browsing through all the barbies and suddenly a feeling enveloped me.....
When I was young... my mom would bring us to Yoahan and boy! !!! i love to look at all the barbies there... We do not have much disposable income so our joy was to look and admire at all the toys... My mom knew we girls love such Barbies and despite the tight savings our family has my mom managed to save up to buy a simple Barbie for me costing 20 over. It was really expensive back in 1992...
I was overjoyed with my new Barbie that my mom bought it for me and my sisters....
I suddenly feel so emotional that today I could not buy all the stuffs that my mom always wanted as she is not with us anymore.. It hurts me that I could not have the mother daughter conversation, the afternoon shopping and tea and the grocery shopping with her anymore...
That feeling burns me and I really miss it so much... How I wish my mom did not suffered from cancer... I wish my mom is still here with us and I wish for her presence.... I really really miss my mom so much and all those things that reminded me of her make me so sad every time..and every time i think of my mom and those times we spent together .. i cry in my heart silently to hide it from everyone....
My tears for her now is useless but Her last tears before her final breath is priceless... Thank god she was able to listen to my last words and she could only respond to me by her tears....
Mummy I miss you so much and I really miss you around even though I am in my twenties but i just need you around in my life...
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